Day 29: "It's Not Over Yet"

Hey y'all, here's day 29's demo.

Enjoy!

It's Not Over Yet by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"It's not over yet
There's tons more we'll forget to regret

We'll all go to Alaska
And get ourselves lost
Everything seems like it matters
But it does not

Every time I punch the clock I hurt myself
Pay the rent, kiss some ass
And ring the money bell"

Day 28: "Cell"

Hey y'all, here's day 28's demo.

Enjoy!

Cell by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I've shed my blood
And dropped it everywhere
But when I'm on the run
People stop and stare

I took my time
So I could buy some
But I punched holes in the bag
When I committed my crime

I love these bars
They give me structure
But when I start to melt
I can't drip out the cell

I've paid my debts
Took time for deaths
I caused the end of theirs
So they can't feel bad for mine"

Day 27: "Diamond Lust"

Hey y'all, here's day 27's demo.
Enjoy!

Diamond Lust by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Scratching out names on the chalkboard
Nobody got what I really wanted
Cleaning the streets for another love parade

I see it come this way
I just want to stop and stay

Sirens flashing and the light is green
Looks like the ghost has got to me
But when I turn around the bars are gone

Looks like the guilty proved me wrong
And the virgins said "So long"

I let you go because
You were too slow to crawl that far
But now that you are

I'm gonna hold you
'Till I barely know you
It's another long stretch

But I think I know what's best
For both of us
This diamond lust

Will make us rich one day
And pave the way
It's another long stretch
But I think I know what's best"

Day 26: "Bottle Me Up For Eternity"

Hey y'all, here's day 26's demo. I think I'm really getting the hang of garageband. I was able to throw this together in a few hours after my double today.

Enjoy!

Bottle Me Up For Eternity by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I'm not your savior
You cannot save a smile

I want it to move on
This mood that I call "I"

So bury my toes in forgotten sea
And bottle me up for eternity
There's nothing familiar about
Our history

It's not for pleasure
As much as it's for pain

When the wind is blowing
The cold feels just the same

So bury my toes in forgotten sea
And bottle me up for eternity
There's nothing familiar about
Our history"

Day 25: "The Hunting Party"

Hey y'all, here's day 25's demo. I've been wanting to do an instrumental so I let my imagination run wild.

Enjoy!

The Hunting Party by Matt Ramsey

Day 24: "So I Don't Have to Speak"

I have nothing to add.

Enjoy!

So I Don't Have to Speak by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Burning water in my mouth
When I think of her
All of my remaining feelings are unsure

Scribbling the words down
So I don't have to speak
Oh no

My mind runs in marathons
But never takes first place
The victory champagne I will never taste

Scribbling the words down
So I don't have to speak
Oh no"

Day 23: "Feel Depressed"

Hey y'all, here's day 23's demo. Happy Christmas!

Feel Depressed by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

It's time to smash the windows of your heart
While the security guard is on the lark

Dancing to regret all bad taste
All mental photographs have been erased

Light a cigarette and feel depressed
It's better that you left

Self mutilation has its draw
It the last way to gain control

But you're wrong if you think it's the only way
to gain control
telling everyone to stay away

Light a cigarette and feel depressed
It's better that you left"

Day 22: "Five"

Hey y'all, here's day 22's demo. It's based on a friend's question of five things I wanted out of life. Here's one answer.

Five by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"List five of the things that you want from life
Never mind the goal, never mind

Number one, I really need to find the one
You're out there under the same old sun

Number two, I want to realize I don't need you
Everyone has their own path to follow through

Number three, I need some help with my psychology
My biology also needs some help

Number four, I really need to question more
There's more than meets the eye we can't ignore

Number five, never lie, always smile
Like I've never seen it quite like this before"

Day 21: "Another Rose"

Hey y'all, here's day 21's demo.

Lotsa midi bells. Enjoy!

Another Rose by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Picture yourself in the frame
Who exactly will it take?

But when you turned your back on me
I cut myself internally
A pretty smile with gnashing teeth
Another rose has smelled as sweet

Growing up just to be knocked down
I'm a king but you've got the crown

But when you turned your back on me
I cut myself internally
A pretty smile with gnashing teeth
Another rose has smelled as sweet"

Day 20: "Raise Them High"

Hey y'all, here's day 20's demo. I can almost taste it.

Enjoy!

No One Says Go by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"My flashlight burns red
Turning everything living to dead

We light up the sky
We come for your life

Raise them high
Raise them high little pretty one

We head on back home
From the planet of destruction and doom

Now you're a slave
That's how I saved you

Raise them high"
Raise them high little pretty one

Day 19: "No One Says Go"

Hey y'all, here's day 19's demo.

Enjoy!

No One Says Go by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Cut the chord
Swallow swords

I thought that you needed help

They rip you in two
Your soul comes unglued

No one says go
Till they're sure that you know you're a slaw
and your back is all they break"

Day 18: "The Season of Blessings in DIsguise"

Hey y'all, here's day 18's demo.

Enjoy!

The Season of Blessings in Disguise by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Finding freedoms
In the season of blessings in disguise

Fiercely fight on
Ghosts and boredom and the man inside

Maybe I should get off of your back

Wonder whether I should get her
Or to wait right here

I show power and go sour
By sinking in my beer

Maybe I should get off of your back"

Day 17: "I Tried"

Hey y'all, here's day 17's demo.

Enjoy!

I Tried by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Inside your purple lips I dive, I swim
Before I rip the pleasure from your skin

I tried

Wherever there is laughter I will find the fool
And when I walk outside I try to play it cool

I tried"

Day 16: "Last Laugh"

Hey y'all, here's day 16's demo.

Enjoy

Last Laugh by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"All your life you've been holding the bag
Getting all the blame and all the jabs

But how sweet you get the last laugh

When you grew up you knew how to act
How to appease the pleasers and suck some ass

But how sweet you get the last laugh

On the day you died they sent your coffin back
All that money at the funeral stayed out of the casket

But how sweet you get the last laugh"

Day 15: "Width of My Soul"

Hey y'all, here's day 15's demo.

Enjoy!

Width of My Soul by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I can see the width of my soul
The ultimate goal in the finish

It takes me down roads I don't know
Hesitate to go but here to win it

Help me I'm frightened
The night is brightened

Life is short and watched for pure
sport in the heavens

Closing doors ask what's in store
and when?

Help me I'm frightened
The night is brightened"

Day 14: "Try It From My Heart"

Hey y'all, here's day 14's demo. I just got a keyboard and it has made such a difference in my recording.

There's a cool little synth solo in the middle for the full english invasion effect.

Enjoy.

Try It From My Heart by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Sad but true is all I hear from you
I know what it takes but I can't do it

I'm tired of walking in the dark
I want some sun
I'm tired of living in my head
I want to try it from my heart

Growing down into my solitude
I feel myself dropping from the loop

I'm tired of walking in the dark
I want some sun
I'm tired of living in my head
I want to try it from my heart"

Day 13: "I Run"

Hey y'all, here's day 13's demo.

Enjoy!

I Run by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I paint a pretty picture of me
I wear a mask so all can see

That I run

You took your little babe to the zoo
But you stayed too long and turned
into an animal
Now people go see you

You run

My mind is so fast I can't breathe
And when I break the ice I hope I can see

That I run"

Day 12: "My Lover's Chair"

Hey y'all, here's day 12's demo. I hope you enjoy!

My Lover's Chair by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"The moon never looked so sweet
It was covered in dust and gloom
In my imagination it filled the room

And it sang me a lullaby
The one to which no babies cry
I will admit I wanted to die

Part of me believes in dreams

Now I go to my lover's chair
And think the thoughts I wouldn't dare
Of times to fearless and times to be scared

Lay me down in the Christmas field
Where adults laugh and kids are healed
Where you always stand up and you never kneel

Part of me believes in dreams"

Day 11: "Underestimated"

Hey y'all, here's day 11's demo.

Enjoy.

Underestimated by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I chewed off my last insult
And spit it in your face
All your pain is friendly
I keep coming to this place

Lift me on your back
And drop me off at home
With your voice in my head
I'm never alone

I was a fool
To underestimate you
It was the truth
But I told you lies
And then I set you loose

I've been speaking my mind
With almost everything
But when that one slipped out
It ruined my evening

I was a fool
To underestimate you
It was the truth
But I told you lies
And then I set you loose

I know you can't forgive me
So I forgive myself
To be your only soldier
And forget everyone else

I was a fool
To underestimate you
It was the truth
But I told you lies
And then I set you loose"

Day 10: "False Positive"

Hey y'all, here's day 10's demo.

Enjoy.

False Positive by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"We passed the test
Better than we both expected

But now I see the score
We thought we both deserve more

Positive we did our best pick

Scribbled words and a sexy dirge
With lights off

It won't work tonight
We better stop

Both thought we did our best pick"

Day 9: "Picture on a Lunchbox"

Hey y'all, here's day 9's demo--a little funky dig on fame.

Enjoy.

Picture on a Lunchbox by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Roll out the red carpet
For your vanity
It's killing me to disagree

Maybe you'd answer your call
And this nothing wouldn't be all
You have to fall back on

To be a picture on a lunch box
Gets a bit rich doesn't it?
I'm packing it

Maybe you'd answer your call
And this nothing wouldn't be all
You have to fall back on"

Day 8: "Sold For Parts"

Hey y'all, here's day 8's song. Enjoy.

Sold for Parts by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"You gave me hugs and took your drugs
Way down, the running sounds were so loud

You hit the road and froze of cold
Leaving me to fight to eat
It's so cold

You took my heart
And sold it for parts

No rent control, he's on parole
All by myself again
But I'm gonna win
I'm gonna get myself a piece

So much to eat but nothing's free
Everyone's friendly
But just to a degree

You took my heart
And sold it for parts"

Day 7: "Happy Day"

Hey y'all. Here's day 7's song. It's probably the most melancholy song I've released. It'll knock you off your happy horse.

Enjoy (in a sadistic fashion):

Happy Day by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I'm afraid the fear will stay
And I will stay out of it
Because I'm a part of it

Happy day with my psychic break
I'm a afraid they will erase
All of it
I'm a part of it

To everyone
I won't come home anymore

This lousy rain
Won't drown away
All the cement and pain
It surrounds us every day

Put me on layaway
Keep me far away

To everyone
I won't come home anymore"

Day 6: "Don't Go"

Hey y'all, here's day 6's post.

Enjoy

Don't Go by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"The deeper the hole
The more I want to go

The more I'm in love
The more I need to be consoled

Your heart is locked from the inside
And we're all blind leading blind
It's a real short ride
But ain't it fun?

Don't call me if you want me
I won't be there
Stop stalling, it's a small thing
But you don't care

The smaller the role
The more I have to make it show
The larger the soul
The more it has to outgrow

Chorus"

Day 5: "Good Believers"

Enjoy.

Good Believers by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:
"Sewing needles, sewing thread
Rip my stitch again
I know I get too careless
When I'm having fun

When you found the book
It was filled with dust
But like a good believer
Blind yourself you must

Let me have the secret code
But everyone's inside
Now I see it's nothing special
I'll go back outside

When you dream you're so innocent
You never think of what yesterday said

When you found the book
It was filled with dust
But like a good believer
Blind yourself you must

And when you dropped all of those hooks
I think of the shiny one I took"

Day 4: "You Make Sugar Taste Like Salt"

This song was inspired by a friend's beautiful comment "You make salt taste like sugar". I reversed the meaning and had a lot of fun writing this song.

Enjoy:

You Make Sugar Taste Like Salt by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Sometimes I sit and wonder
Exactly just how long
This sun will take before it's gone

And when you say "I love you"
I can't help but feel the same
Though it's never felt so wrong

Give me some of that bitter love
You make sugar taste like salt

When you're down, I'm up
It always my fault

Maybe if you kill me
It'll be enough

Take a brick and smash
All of the windows in my heart
Every day's a brand new start

And when I think of all the looks
You've given me
I can't help but feel I've been beat

Give me some of that bitter love
You make sugar taste like salt

When you're down I'm up
It's always my fault

Maybe if you kill me
It'll be enough

So take another look before my heart's
Shot down in flames
In my head you're playing games

Give me some of that bitter love
You make sugar taste like salt

When you're down, I'm up
It's always my fault

Maybe if you kill me
It'll be enough"

Day 3: "My Hero"

Y'all thanks so much for your feedback on the last song.

I see this whole project as an experiment to involve as many people in making an album as possible.

So please participate by letting me know what you think works/doesn't work on a demo.

Here's Day 3's song. Enjoy.

My Hero by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"Shaking your head at me
Laughing

You were so grown up
but too young to come with me

I saved the night in my mind

You were my hero
you said "No" when you wanted to

We are so far now
but down a different route

I saved the night in my mind"

Day 2: "Where The Faces Go"

Where The Faces Go (Belle Isle) by Matt Ramsey

Lyrics:

"I may be here a while
I hope you're proud of me

I still have that boyish smile
I hope it never leaves

I've been down so many roads
that I don't know where to go

Don't know where the faces go
Her smile is hard to find

Before death ties the rope
You know we've got a while

I've been down so many roads
that I don't know where to go

The dim lights at parties
Never looked so bright

You were young and steady
You always did what's right

I've been down so many roads
that I don't know where to go"

Every Time I Lie to Myself

This is a song about how what we tell ourselves creates our reality.
Even when we lie.

I think sometimes when I am unhappy, it's because I'm not being totally truthful with myself.

I'm most unhappy when I feel ineffective and purposeless. And this comes into direct collision with my belief that I have a very profound and important reason to be here. To share my music.

Enjoy.

Every Time I Lie to Myself by Matt Ramsey


Lyrics:

"I try to tell myself it isn't right
But every time I catch myself
I look inside

Chorus:
It gets so blue in my mind that I don't know what to do
Because every time I lie to myself
It comes true

Blue blue blind shades across my eyes
Sing sing sing me your lullabies

Chorus

Be careful what you say on that microphone
Because every note you sing finds a home

Chorus"

Day 1: "What My Head Wants"

Most afternoons around 3 or 4PM, I have general, anxious feelings about what's going on in my life. These feelings usually coincide with a nap I take after getting home from my daytime serving job.

I'm not sure why they happen. Maybe it has something to do with coming down from the frenetic pace of being a lunch server.

Normally these feelings distress me further because I feel I have no control or use for them. But today, while taking one of the dangerous naps, the anxiety started to kick in and I acted.

I immediately began writing the lyrics to this song.

I hope I was able to turn the negative into the positive.

I'll let y'all judge.

Enjoy.

What My Head Wants by Matt Ramsey


Lyrics:

"Go to bed with my darkest thoughts
Wake up with enemies
I want to get up but cannot
I want to do what I please

But these feelings
You know these feelings let me down

I know it's not fair to you
A King without a crown
I'm a joker who tells the truth
but never makes a sound

But these feelings
You know these feelings let me down

You are what my head wants

Stepping on my mind's garden
So those fuckers never get up
I'm a lot like hangovers
I'm sensitive to the touch

But these feelings
You know these feelings let me down

You are what my head wants"